Week 3+4+5+6: Unmotivated weeks

I think it would wasting my time if im write every single week in here, so I would just write all 4 past week in this post, it equal to a month. and it's quite disappointed weeks for me. I'll get though those week shortly so let's go.

Past weeks flow and actually I cannot really do anything much. I would say those weeks are quite stagnant... During this weeks I did few things outside the school but I would say it in another post. This post will focus on things happened inside my school.

First, English class started, even though it is not a big problem for me in other days but tuesday is quite a nightmare. I have to study about 8 hours in total and stay in school from 8h30 to 6h30. At first it is a nightmare because I don't have a nap between classes. And of course my mind cannot be clear if I don't sleep properly, there are only one exception which is playing games. The English class, it doesn't have any friend in my Advanced A joining me in this course which make me quite sad. The class have a lot of girls and the class are quite "normal" to me, except for one guy. The discussions are not really interesting, and i feel it is quite ordinary. I should not compare my classmates with my previous classmates but the fact that they are not having a better knowledge than me in certain aspects which make me unmotivated. The teachers... I don't know that to say. Jacob, my Listening and Speaking teacher, he have the happy face most of the time and I think I don't have anything to complain about him, even though the task he gave the class is not hard as Christoff Van Houf, my previous lecturer. I think Christoff tasks is more challenging and better. Next one is the Reading and Writing teacher, Matt. I think he is a good teacher, in general. He is more demanding comparing with Jason, and I feel that he is a fastidious person through his behaviours. He have many concerns, and commitment he told before starting the class, which is used for most fastidious and mature person.

Second, I tried to join the Dance club with an audition, and I failed, sadly. After that, I attended the dance classes and practice dancing new songs in the club on my own. I feel quite lonely, since I don't talk much with people there. They are mostly girls and I cannot join their conversation. However, I have to join this club by any cost because I want to perform in the stage in this uni. There are some feeling of incompetence occured inside me. I hate to say but even if you have confidence, when you met something like this incompetence, you can't help it to see this feeling. It's been a long time since I have this feeling again, quite negative I guess. But I won't give up to join this club, at least not after one fail.

Third, about Comtemporary Approaches to Media class, well, nothing much happened. I have to write an assignment about 1000-1500 wordcount about a local issues and how the media addressed it. I chose the Vietnam's education system issues, since I care about it and hate it for a long long time. I also have to make a poster about this issue and it has to relate to the paper I wrote. It was not too hard I think, since the lecturers guided me. Justin have a planning paper and instruct the class to do it, while Simon helped me by giving his opinion and I just submit the poster when he thinks it is okay xD. I haven't received the score till now but hopefully it can be good.

However, I feel myself too unmotivated and stagnant during those weeks, which doesn't give me any joy coming to school or at home. I just stay at home and playing leagues. I discomfort with those weeks and I need to find a way to solve this, as soon as possible.